Pome Fruit

11/2/2025

Crush fixed

Fast and swollen upon my being

is god pounding in a point?

that there will be some amount of a revisit

to a pain, or a reminder of just how easy it is

to fall back

And now what?

55 daily check ins from every neighbor friend acquaintance

Do you know?

How are you answers?

5 days ago I didn't think anyone could see me

I was walking around in a fast pace

Making eye contact with everyone

and there was never any acknowledgment

Could they not see me? or did they wish to not see me.

How do you deal with an arms-distance pain?

Coming at it slow, or with shock

Its my sweet things painful inner stitching

(its painful because it hurts you too)

Why did you leave work early Monday?

But there was absolutely no feeling

How can I lie now after being so sorrowfully honest

What can sway you, but more importantly

put my own fears in check?

These hotline workers have ran out of things to say

there's 36 other people trying to get through

What can I say to sway you anyhow?

"Do you feel comfortable?"

"Are you able to?"

No resolution, just dim haze

the sky reflects, with a mornings fog

i have a shaken awe about me.

how i could speak it all allowed to one stranger,

and now only let it sit in my head.

My body knows before I do

5/28/2025

Washer symptoms

Sensing Fill

for around 7 minutes,

no filling

Whirring rhythmically.

All lights shut off,

washer drains for around 7 minutes,

then turns on “wash” light

but

no washing occurs.

(This wasn't actually a poem, but actually my notes on my broken washer.)

9/24/2025

3 days to 5,000

I spend lying

in the same space

curl inwards pillow fort mess

sink into memory foam

it forms around every piece

I wanna hear it speak to me

so so comforting

pet it and caress

loved and cared for

is this, is this,

Am I even fully felt by

the sides of these walls

they sigh in relief

but I wanna shift around

Right here?

is this what im meant

to be? to feel?

they love the niche

my body forms

and im getting ulcers

from the long tight hold

Dont say that yet

i dont even know what it takes

im full of fuzz

its all I can breathe in

I just wanna rush into

the comfort of it all

so for that I will

leave the rest behind

and sit here with

exactly what I asked for.

An all encompassing

form fitting

tangled up nest

that i was clawing up the sides to get in

and feel what everyone tells me

is the best parts of life

It's affirmations

rings around in my head

are theses my own words?

its just the soft rub of blankets

on the sides of my ears

i can't hear what its saying to me

come on come on speak to me

I just wanna hear

exactly what I came here for

dreadfully what I wanted.

But even if that is

somewhat uncomfortable.

8/15/2025

No title, this poem is very much meant to be heard, not read.

Operation !

Desperation !

towards this unfamiliar

Refresh the page

I’ll leave my phone at yours

Open and Unlocked !

Hold your breath

In this sticky mess of thought

It’s so so gross but

We’re already bathed in it

What excuse or

Ignorance

Will you use next

Freak of nature !!

Alone and unwatched !!

There’s no accountability

behind this screen !!

Does this keep you going?

Scamper towards something you’ve made up to be in front of you

Do you like what you see?

Is it playing out how you’d hope?

So many photos to look through

They crisp click shutter flash

fourth, you’re taking in

every. shape.

Close, open up

Close, open up

Click through

Keep coming for more

And maybe I’m already there

This girl I saw

At the gym

Her face was the perfect

Shape

I’m mapping it out on top

Of my own

Oh nooo

My nose

Oh noooo

My neck !!

Why can’t it be

That I’m the most perfect girl

At the gym

Ughhhhhh

Do I have to download

An app for this???

7/2/25

Inner imagine world

It has been 3 days since I’ve let you be my lover

And it is sooooo fucking predictable!!!!!!

And it takes weeks upon weeks to forget

Internal plumage and descend

Throwback throwback throwback

Hidden photo album throwback

Late night love

Thumb sucking comforter

Daytime wishful thinker

Daydreamer dish pit

Demon fighter

I start off so ioncent

I am caressing my own hair

And holding my blankets so close

Press press press

And squeeze against

Lingering too long

Is it too long?

How long can I spend touching you stranger?

Before you move your leg?

Or I move my foot

Is it awkward. !

Are we overthinking ?

Do you need

Need this as much as me

And I just wanna be held

Or cared for

Or shamed

Or sought after

Or caught looking a little too long

Take me in too

Perfect real life senerio

Play it out

Replay replay replay

Cringe and replay It out

We hate looking at our phone

And we know how to small talk

Because it’s not small talk

We can eye contact connect

Asking permission before touch

I am focused on nothing else

Mutual meet in the middle

It’s playful

My friend my lover my girlfriend boyfriend

Check all the boxes

Meet all my friends

And family

And coworkers

And strangers

With me 24/7

Can it even be loneliness at this point

Suran wrap my brain

Dripping down the sides

This nest destroyed under

My own selfish weight

No time to finish it

I’m looking

For something pretty inside

To escape outward

4/25/2025

Top floor vacation

Will you ever

feel like home?

I want to rush

to the comfortable stage

Where I know

every crack in the ceiling

Where every floorboard creaks

How many stairs there are

A map of

all the corners

and chips in the paint

The smell I carry

is a refection

of the time I’ve spent

lying in the same spot

for years

And i know the fastest route

to drive here

from work

And how to quickly

open the door

and run

to curl up in bed

Where the sun comes in

the brightest

I have paintings

hanging in the garage

Grandpas kansas landscape

Uncle Andrews river scene

And a portrait

of a girl I don’t know


You all come and go

and I see the space

anew

for the first time

in ages


4/23/2025

No Title

Brand new is it?

spin spin spin

Brand new it is?

spin spin spin


it is Brand new?

spin spin spin

is it Brand new?

spin spin spin

Not new

I think

Just

I’m just dizzy


4/18/2025

No Title

Into your thoughts

I can see as my own

And now I wanna be your dog

Iggy pop style

Take care of me

I of course will come across

as do desperate for the words

That affirm where I am

In your mind

Will I be what I truly am

For you, or for anyone

really

Are you acting in a way

that you would act

for everyone?

Do you act this way for me

What truly am I for you

I can be it

In my own mind

We can play out

as many times as it takes

until it fits

Squeeze in here with me

Could you hold me

as close as my idea

for you?

No longer far

as I

am the closest thing to you

Together